The stress is kicking in, that's for sure! I haven't had a good nights sleep in like 4 or 5 days now! It's all because of stress from school. They weren't kidding when they say 4th Semester is tough, it such as fuck is!
Let's have a summary of what I have to do still....
1 journal worth 40% (which I can't start too much because we have yet to cover the material in class), a display that we stand in front of for an hour in the B wing (20% I believe).
1 test (30 % I believe), an indoor/outdoor safety check list (which I have completed the checklist part and have to add in the "action required" part) worth 10%, a potluck (which we are doing friday) worth 5%, a self evaluation wirth 5%.
A debate (which my topic is messed up for) 15%, an annotated bibliography to go along with the dbeate (20%), a final paper (40%) which I have yet to start because I don't really understand and she has yet to explain properly...
An essay (40%) which I have started a little bit on but don't really understand, a presenation, and a professionalism evaluation (5%)
A journal (45%) which is ongoing throughout the semester, and an inclass activity (10%)
a BIG presenation which I have yet to do anything for cuz my stupid group memebr hasnt emailed me the observation!!! and a test
And of course to finish placement, which I have 4 curriculums to do still....
It's getting really overhwelming to look at all of these things and try to fit them all in...but you gotta do them one but at a time...
Like focus on whats due this week (potluck and an inclass acitvity), and get those done (obviously an in class activity I cant do before hand, so the potluck) then look at whats due next week (Presenation-the one my group member HASNT emailed me the thing for!!!) and my debate...and focus on those. It's hard, I know, but I have to do it.
I wanna get started on these other things, but first priority comes first. I have to do whats due first or I'll fall behind on those. That being said...I really need to find my 3 articles for my debate. I found 1 for sure, I need to ask about the 2nd...but the 3rd has me puzzled :( oh well, gotta do it! I just need to find them for the debate, the annotated bibliography has the oppertunity to be due the week after so I'm gonna take that chance!
*sigh* but its still stressful!
A stressed,
Nessie <3
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
updates!
Here's a poem I wrote the other day:
It was nice to see you the other day
It's good to know your doing Ok
We gtalked not of you or of me
But for a moment it was like it used to be
We smiled like it was before
Sometimes I wish we'd do it more
I think of you often, just thought you should know
I thought I had finally let you go
Changed happen throught life time
sometimes it's good, sometimes I'm fine
I may not have cried abiut it at all
Maybe I knew someday youd call
Maybe we can have a fresh start
Maybe this time we will not part
Things in the past put behind us
Never again to be a fuss
So talk to me and hear me out
I don't want to see you pout
Smile we may again be friends
Maybe this time not to end
Here's something else I wrote....
I know you've dated more beautiful girls than me
But I promise you I'll be the best I can be
I'll shower you with all the love in the world
Or at least all the love you an hold
And this...
Were you ever really there?
Did you ever really care?
Was I just a dare?
Was I just to spare?
We were a great pair
And now you only glare
your hearts in a tear
Too much too bear
Feels like I need air
All I do is stare
It's just not fair
Oh where are you, where?
And a quote I came up with...
"Life gives us many changes; it's up to us to decide what to face and embrase, and what to throw away"
And last, but not least, this (which I wrote today)...
My hands are shaking in rage
I should be locked in a cage
I am loose, wild and free
You should be running away from me
Just thought I'd update you :) Oh, and I've gotten another song ALMOST complete :)
Nessie <3
It was nice to see you the other day
It's good to know your doing Ok
We gtalked not of you or of me
But for a moment it was like it used to be
We smiled like it was before
Sometimes I wish we'd do it more
I think of you often, just thought you should know
I thought I had finally let you go
Changed happen throught life time
sometimes it's good, sometimes I'm fine
I may not have cried abiut it at all
Maybe I knew someday youd call
Maybe we can have a fresh start
Maybe this time we will not part
Things in the past put behind us
Never again to be a fuss
So talk to me and hear me out
I don't want to see you pout
Smile we may again be friends
Maybe this time not to end
Here's something else I wrote....
I know you've dated more beautiful girls than me
But I promise you I'll be the best I can be
I'll shower you with all the love in the world
Or at least all the love you an hold
And this...
Were you ever really there?
Did you ever really care?
Was I just a dare?
Was I just to spare?
We were a great pair
And now you only glare
your hearts in a tear
Too much too bear
Feels like I need air
All I do is stare
It's just not fair
Oh where are you, where?
And a quote I came up with...
"Life gives us many changes; it's up to us to decide what to face and embrase, and what to throw away"
And last, but not least, this (which I wrote today)...
My hands are shaking in rage
I should be locked in a cage
I am loose, wild and free
You should be running away from me
Just thought I'd update you :) Oh, and I've gotten another song ALMOST complete :)
Nessie <3
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Drunk fucks!
Fuck this place is going to drive me sooooo fucking crazy tonight! I can not fucking stand drunks! Already, and it's only 7:30pm, 3 times I've been annoyed by drunks...and I was just doing laundry! First was some fucking annoying girls in the elvator....2nd was the noise of people in the lobby going down to the laundry room...and the 3rd time was coming back up with my clothes and these 3 fucking guys talking to me VERY annoyingly asking me, pretty much, to go have a few drinks with them...they asked what year I was in and asked how I liked rez for 2 years so I HAD to mention I spent most of the time at my boyfriends JUST o I could get them to LEAVE ME ALONE!
Fuck this night is going to be annoying! I wish I could go to Jeffs but hes going out tonight....fuck!
I hate drunks, I really do! Why do these people think alcohol i the answer to everything! FUCK I hate drunks! I hate drinking, I hate alcohol! I hate people who think they need it in their lives!
fuck fuck fuck!
I hate this night!
Fuck this night is going to be annoying! I wish I could go to Jeffs but hes going out tonight....fuck!
I hate drunks, I really do! Why do these people think alcohol i the answer to everything! FUCK I hate drunks! I hate drinking, I hate alcohol! I hate people who think they need it in their lives!
fuck fuck fuck!
I hate this night!
Holiday are not what they are!
So heres my newest rant....how people seem to take holidays and chnage them for their own convience! Nothing is celebrated for the proper reasons anymore! What bring sthis to my attention? Well today is St. Patrick's day, and I'm pretty sure the history behind this day is NOT about getting drunk!
Looking up a bit of information on it, it seems as if St. Patrick's day is supposed to be a religious holiday. It is celebrated by attending church, fasting, and, yes drinking...but NOT GETTING DRUNK! I can not even find WHY people INSIST on getting drunk during this day. It takes away the whole reason of celebrating. Why get drunk, I still dont see the purpose in it. Its stupid really, drinking, getting drunk.... why do something that your not even going to remember later....
And its not just St. Patrick's day that demeans the holiday spirit...Christmas is forgotten about its true reasons, people have changed it to presents and not about the true reason, the birth of Chirst. Easter is about Candy and not about his reserection (spelt wrong lol but w.e).... Valentines day is about cards and not about St. Valentine... every holiday can be taken a look at and seen where it is beyond what its supposed to be. People don't care about the reason anymore, its juts been so thrust upon them through their lives as children as what the made up reason is that they forget the real reasons.
I'm ashamed...although I will admit I dont celebrate for real reasons, but I'm not religious...instead I choose not to really celbrate (with the exception of Christmas, however that I see more as a family thing than a present thing). I dont care about Valentines day, I can go without the romance, cards,candy ect. I dont care about St. Patricks day I'm not even going to drink...I just don't care.
Of course in todays society it's just another reaosn to drink. Well drink up you fucking idiots! Your just ruining your lives that way anyways.
Till Later,
Nessie
Looking up a bit of information on it, it seems as if St. Patrick's day is supposed to be a religious holiday. It is celebrated by attending church, fasting, and, yes drinking...but NOT GETTING DRUNK! I can not even find WHY people INSIST on getting drunk during this day. It takes away the whole reason of celebrating. Why get drunk, I still dont see the purpose in it. Its stupid really, drinking, getting drunk.... why do something that your not even going to remember later....
And its not just St. Patrick's day that demeans the holiday spirit...Christmas is forgotten about its true reasons, people have changed it to presents and not about the true reason, the birth of Chirst. Easter is about Candy and not about his reserection (spelt wrong lol but w.e).... Valentines day is about cards and not about St. Valentine... every holiday can be taken a look at and seen where it is beyond what its supposed to be. People don't care about the reason anymore, its juts been so thrust upon them through their lives as children as what the made up reason is that they forget the real reasons.
I'm ashamed...although I will admit I dont celebrate for real reasons, but I'm not religious...instead I choose not to really celbrate (with the exception of Christmas, however that I see more as a family thing than a present thing). I dont care about Valentines day, I can go without the romance, cards,candy ect. I dont care about St. Patricks day I'm not even going to drink...I just don't care.
Of course in todays society it's just another reaosn to drink. Well drink up you fucking idiots! Your just ruining your lives that way anyways.
Till Later,
Nessie
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
sick :(
I am sick! It sucks! It started on Sunday, when I woke up with a sore throat and sore shoulders and neck. I thought the sore throat was from dryness in the air, and that my shoulders and neck were sore from sleeping badly. However, the ore throat didnt go away and the pain from my shoulders and neck extended down to my back. At this point, I knew I was getting sick.
Later that night I was beginning to feel weak and tired, so I stopped doing the dishes and went to lay on the couch to watch a movie. I began to feel cold as well, and a headache started to bloom. When Jeff got home he touched my forehead and said I was very hot...we layed in bed and he could feel the heat emitting of my body, while he wasnt even under the blanket and I was. I had troubles sleeping and everything...it sucked!
Monday brought along my sore throat and a bit of aches and pain but it wasn;t so bad...until later that night. My throat was hurting so badly I wanted to cry. I had given Jeff money to buy me medicine so I was sooo happy when he got home...however, my fever had returned and I was warm again. Again I had trouble sleeping.
Today, I awoke early because I couldn;t get comfortable and my throat was still sore. I took some of the pills Jeff got me and had a tea, it helped a bit. I showered, and it helped a bit too...however, I was hungry but my throat was too sore to really eat anything that crunchy or hard, and I couldnt think of anything else that we had that I could eat. So I started to feel sick... like really sick. I left with Jeff when he went to work so I could get come soup from timmies and buy jeffie a coffee. While standing in the timmies line I almost puked..and again while I was walking to a table to eat at...but while I ate I was starting to feel a bit better, however still sick.
Here I am, 2 and a half hours, still feeling sick but slowly eating some small things....a yogurt, a nectarine....but its not really helping :( I just wanna feel better! I think I'm a little warm still too... but its hard to tell by yourself if you have a fever....*sigh*
A sick,
Nessie <3
Later that night I was beginning to feel weak and tired, so I stopped doing the dishes and went to lay on the couch to watch a movie. I began to feel cold as well, and a headache started to bloom. When Jeff got home he touched my forehead and said I was very hot...we layed in bed and he could feel the heat emitting of my body, while he wasnt even under the blanket and I was. I had troubles sleeping and everything...it sucked!
Monday brought along my sore throat and a bit of aches and pain but it wasn;t so bad...until later that night. My throat was hurting so badly I wanted to cry. I had given Jeff money to buy me medicine so I was sooo happy when he got home...however, my fever had returned and I was warm again. Again I had trouble sleeping.
Today, I awoke early because I couldn;t get comfortable and my throat was still sore. I took some of the pills Jeff got me and had a tea, it helped a bit. I showered, and it helped a bit too...however, I was hungry but my throat was too sore to really eat anything that crunchy or hard, and I couldnt think of anything else that we had that I could eat. So I started to feel sick... like really sick. I left with Jeff when he went to work so I could get come soup from timmies and buy jeffie a coffee. While standing in the timmies line I almost puked..and again while I was walking to a table to eat at...but while I ate I was starting to feel a bit better, however still sick.
Here I am, 2 and a half hours, still feeling sick but slowly eating some small things....a yogurt, a nectarine....but its not really helping :( I just wanna feel better! I think I'm a little warm still too... but its hard to tell by yourself if you have a fever....*sigh*
A sick,
Nessie <3
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Writing like CRAZY
SOOOOO!
I've been song writing like crazy! lol. I wrote yet another song that I just LOVE so much yesterday! I call it "shedding tears", however, dont be mistaken by the title, its actually very beautiful, loving, and romatic of a song and I wrote it in honor of the love of my life...because it is EXACTLY something he would say to me...and does actually lol. I'll share a bit of it:
Please don't look at me
With tears rolling down my face
I'm ashamed of how I look
With my eyes so blotchy red
I'm not so perfect
In case you haven't noticed
So why can't you see me
For what I really am?
And he said
Baby in my eyes your perfect
I don't want you any other way
I wish you'd see you
The way I do
Your beautiful, your wonderful
The best thing in my life
Don't be embarrassed for shedding tears
With me here tonight
Obviously there is still work that needs to be done with it, but thats the first part of it! Ohhh I love having a creative wordy mind :) <3
Nessie <3
I've been song writing like crazy! lol. I wrote yet another song that I just LOVE so much yesterday! I call it "shedding tears", however, dont be mistaken by the title, its actually very beautiful, loving, and romatic of a song and I wrote it in honor of the love of my life...because it is EXACTLY something he would say to me...and does actually lol. I'll share a bit of it:
Please don't look at me
With tears rolling down my face
I'm ashamed of how I look
With my eyes so blotchy red
I'm not so perfect
In case you haven't noticed
So why can't you see me
For what I really am?
And he said
Baby in my eyes your perfect
I don't want you any other way
I wish you'd see you
The way I do
Your beautiful, your wonderful
The best thing in my life
Don't be embarrassed for shedding tears
With me here tonight
Obviously there is still work that needs to be done with it, but thats the first part of it! Ohhh I love having a creative wordy mind :) <3
Nessie <3
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)