Here's an update on the song I posted in a previous Post! It's still not finshed but heres what I got (and i would like to remind you, copyright belong to me!)
Look into my eyes
and tell me can you see
the light that shines so brightly
anf the feelins i have for you
reach into my soul
and feel my heart beating
tell me can you feel
the love i have for you
This is all new to me
but baby i want you to know
and baby i want you to see
that its all becuse of you
my heart screams your name
whenever we're apart
your always on my mind
so please don't leave me behind
your the one i choose to love
the one my heart decided on
the one the great man above
has put into my arms
So, like I said theres still work to be done, and a chorus to be added and everything, but im working on it :)
spreading the love,
Nessie <3
Thursday, July 29, 2010
a lil bit of ranting...
I thought a blog post was long needed here, considering most of my posts go to my private blog on wordpress.com. So, I thought, since no one knows about this one, it's safe to rant!
Theres a few things I wish to rant about, but first off is Last Friday my friends had an intervention with me about how my realtionship with Jeff was going. Now, I love my friends, I really do, but honestly, it's my life. Sure, I'm happy they are concerned and all about me, but they have got to let me live my life my own way. I understand that they want to make sure everything is going alright, and that they want to make sure I'm being smart and responsible and BLAH BLAH BLAH, but honestly it is none of their business. If they want to share with me things about their relationship, fine, go ahead; but dont put your noses in my business. It kinda just pisses me off.
Of course I didnt tell them that, I listened to what they had to say and nodded or whatever, but I honestly forget half of what they even said. All I can recall is the fact that they think I'm moving too fast with him, that they don't think I've given enough thought to the chance of pregnancy, that they think I'm too wound up on the thought that we could be together forever, and that i used to be the responsible one but that they think ive trown my beliefs and morals away.
Well, whatever...I am smarter than they think. I'm not an idiot and I know what I'm doing. I know the concequences and will deal with them if anything happens. And yes, I do have a high belief that Jeff and I could be togteher forever...but thats because i KNOW what its like to be with him, and they dont. They may have seen glimpses of us together, and they've made assumptions off of that, but they don't know, and therefore can't comment on it.
Anywho, on to the next thing I have to ran about...
Some stupid fucking idiot is really pissing me off on Facebook. A guy i went to school with and is all buddy buddy with jess now because of richard is making fucking comments about me. Well, kinda...he commented on Jess status and said something like 'ok vanessa' or something like that. Now, it was on a day where she had updated her status more often than normal. Now, at first when i read it, it bothered me because obviously i knew it was about me but I didnt know what. Eventually, though, with the help of a few other posts I figured out that the reason he said that is that I update my facebook constantly and I guess he finds it annoying or whatever.
Well fuck him! if he doesn't like it, why doesn't he delete me? It wouldn't be a loss to me or anything, Its not like I even talk to him. It just pisses me off that he had to write on her wall 'oh hey there vanessa' and it just really fucking pissed me off. Honestly, grow the fuck up!
Anywho... on to my last rant
Jess! I swear if she reads something on my twitter, she updates her FB status to something...and I just KNOW its about my twitter..its not hard to put two and two together. I swear, she should just learn to keep her mouth shut sometimes! Like I'm not an idiot, clearly, and I can figure things out pretty easily. I'm fairly smart, and I hate my intelligence being underminded. I figured it out at first from the other day I was creeping some bitches FB that I knew and hate and found out that she had a baby at the age of 20, so i updated my twitter saying "why am i not suprised shed have a baby at 20. i know its not that young but still" and jess put her FB status, not 5 min after i posted that "that makes me want to laugh and be pissed off all at the same time" my theory...our talk about me being able to handle a baby if i was pregant and then me saying this...so that pissed me off.
Now today, i put up some pictures and commented about how much i love jeff and said "your everything ive ever wanted, and all ill never need" or something along those lines, and she puts on her FB "oh mannn...i just wanna....ughhhhhh" and it easily matches up because they also talked to me about how it seems as if jeff is my everything, and about being together forever, etc etc...so i can easily see how me saying that would frustrate her because im not listening to what they said to me.
well, fuck you then. Honestly, im starting not to care anymore. I love them, sure, but if theyre gonna be like that, then I dont need them. they arent friends if they act like that.
Anywho! rant over, cant think of anything else to say. Check back later for new info!
Theres a few things I wish to rant about, but first off is Last Friday my friends had an intervention with me about how my realtionship with Jeff was going. Now, I love my friends, I really do, but honestly, it's my life. Sure, I'm happy they are concerned and all about me, but they have got to let me live my life my own way. I understand that they want to make sure everything is going alright, and that they want to make sure I'm being smart and responsible and BLAH BLAH BLAH, but honestly it is none of their business. If they want to share with me things about their relationship, fine, go ahead; but dont put your noses in my business. It kinda just pisses me off.
Of course I didnt tell them that, I listened to what they had to say and nodded or whatever, but I honestly forget half of what they even said. All I can recall is the fact that they think I'm moving too fast with him, that they don't think I've given enough thought to the chance of pregnancy, that they think I'm too wound up on the thought that we could be together forever, and that i used to be the responsible one but that they think ive trown my beliefs and morals away.
Well, whatever...I am smarter than they think. I'm not an idiot and I know what I'm doing. I know the concequences and will deal with them if anything happens. And yes, I do have a high belief that Jeff and I could be togteher forever...but thats because i KNOW what its like to be with him, and they dont. They may have seen glimpses of us together, and they've made assumptions off of that, but they don't know, and therefore can't comment on it.
Anywho, on to the next thing I have to ran about...
Some stupid fucking idiot is really pissing me off on Facebook. A guy i went to school with and is all buddy buddy with jess now because of richard is making fucking comments about me. Well, kinda...he commented on Jess status and said something like 'ok vanessa' or something like that. Now, it was on a day where she had updated her status more often than normal. Now, at first when i read it, it bothered me because obviously i knew it was about me but I didnt know what. Eventually, though, with the help of a few other posts I figured out that the reason he said that is that I update my facebook constantly and I guess he finds it annoying or whatever.
Well fuck him! if he doesn't like it, why doesn't he delete me? It wouldn't be a loss to me or anything, Its not like I even talk to him. It just pisses me off that he had to write on her wall 'oh hey there vanessa' and it just really fucking pissed me off. Honestly, grow the fuck up!
Anywho... on to my last rant
Jess! I swear if she reads something on my twitter, she updates her FB status to something...and I just KNOW its about my twitter..its not hard to put two and two together. I swear, she should just learn to keep her mouth shut sometimes! Like I'm not an idiot, clearly, and I can figure things out pretty easily. I'm fairly smart, and I hate my intelligence being underminded. I figured it out at first from the other day I was creeping some bitches FB that I knew and hate and found out that she had a baby at the age of 20, so i updated my twitter saying "why am i not suprised shed have a baby at 20. i know its not that young but still" and jess put her FB status, not 5 min after i posted that "that makes me want to laugh and be pissed off all at the same time" my theory...our talk about me being able to handle a baby if i was pregant and then me saying this...so that pissed me off.
Now today, i put up some pictures and commented about how much i love jeff and said "your everything ive ever wanted, and all ill never need" or something along those lines, and she puts on her FB "oh mannn...i just wanna....ughhhhhh" and it easily matches up because they also talked to me about how it seems as if jeff is my everything, and about being together forever, etc etc...so i can easily see how me saying that would frustrate her because im not listening to what they said to me.
well, fuck you then. Honestly, im starting not to care anymore. I love them, sure, but if theyre gonna be like that, then I dont need them. they arent friends if they act like that.
Anywho! rant over, cant think of anything else to say. Check back later for new info!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Feeling Left Out
I am really starting to hate the fact that Tisha and Jess are now all 'buddy buddy' again. I feel as if Tisha never talks to me anymore, and that Jess just doesn't care about me anymore. I don't know what to do anymore, and I honestly just don't give a fuck. It pisses me off that it everything has had to go this way, but to be honest, with the way things are going, I wish they hadn;t changed, I wish that Tisha and Jess were still fighting...then 'd still feel as if Tisha was my best friend and not falling back into Jess's clutches.
I kinda feel bad saying it, but it's true. Seeing all this, things about Jess inviting Tisha to Rev and the beach and seeming to forget about me, it hurts. It's like Jess and I aren't even friends anymore. We never speak, we don;t hang out anymore, and it seems as if she just doesn't care.
I know Tisha still likes me, I know we are still friends, but I honestly can't help but feel as if we're gonna start drifting apart, falling away from each other...and that she's gonna fall into Jess's clutches again and get hurt. I've never hurt Tisha, I've never caused her pain... and I'm worried Jess is only going to hurt her.
I just don't get why I wasn't invitied... Jess sent out a massive invite to a shit load of people for Rev...but I wasn't included. She invitied Tisha to the Beach, but never thought to ask me. I wouldn't have been able to go, I'm working, but it's not as if she knew that. I hadn't told anyone besides Jeff and my parents which days I was working... I just don't understand why. Aren't we still supposed to be friends? I just don't get why she doesn't seem to care, and why it seems as if we definatly aren't friends anymore.
I'm not going to bother asking her anymore, i'm not gonna bother saying anything to her... because the answers always the same, and I'm tired of hearing it.
I kinda feel bad saying it, but it's true. Seeing all this, things about Jess inviting Tisha to Rev and the beach and seeming to forget about me, it hurts. It's like Jess and I aren't even friends anymore. We never speak, we don;t hang out anymore, and it seems as if she just doesn't care.
I know Tisha still likes me, I know we are still friends, but I honestly can't help but feel as if we're gonna start drifting apart, falling away from each other...and that she's gonna fall into Jess's clutches again and get hurt. I've never hurt Tisha, I've never caused her pain... and I'm worried Jess is only going to hurt her.
I just don't get why I wasn't invitied... Jess sent out a massive invite to a shit load of people for Rev...but I wasn't included. She invitied Tisha to the Beach, but never thought to ask me. I wouldn't have been able to go, I'm working, but it's not as if she knew that. I hadn't told anyone besides Jeff and my parents which days I was working... I just don't understand why. Aren't we still supposed to be friends? I just don't get why she doesn't seem to care, and why it seems as if we definatly aren't friends anymore.
I'm not going to bother asking her anymore, i'm not gonna bother saying anything to her... because the answers always the same, and I'm tired of hearing it.
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