The Immaturity of College students

Ok, this post is on behalf of a girl in my class who has been the recent victim of bullying. I am a 4th semester (2nd year) college student, our course is Early Childhood Education, but there are people in my class who think it's funny to pick on people with disabilities. To talk about them behind their back. To draw crude pictures about them, quoting what they asked in class, and posting that picture on facebook for the WORLD to see. These people are 20 years old, and are supposed to be working with kids.

I'm going to talk about what I witnessed of this myself for this poor girl. I was in the Timmie's line at lunch buying some food. This group of students in my class were about 2 people in front of me. That didn't mean I couldn't hear EXACTLY what they were saying. They started talking rudely about this girl in our class. This girl has a hearing problem and has to ask the teacher to repeat things, or ask for clarification to make sure she had heard right. Well, this group of students are talking shit about it, saying she should stop asking for the teacher to repeat things, and how "if she has problems hearing she should sit closer to the front". These people are supposed to be 20 years old.

It pissed me off so much, but of course I am not brave enough to stand up and tell them to shut the fuck up, and besides it wouldnt have made a difference. ANd besides the fact that they talk shit about others, they ALSO talk constantly in class and laugh or giggle about what other students say or ask. They make it very hard to concentrate in class, and I know for a fact a lot of people are fed up with it. So today a gorup of us sent the teachers an eamil. When I heard they were writing the email, I offered what I heard to be added into the email and consented my name to be placed on it with the others in order for teachers to contact me if need be.

Well, later on in class, another piece of evidence was found, furthering the immaturity of these students. One of them had drawn a picture of 2 of our classmates and quoted, work for word, what they had said in class, in a VERY rude way. When I saw the picture I wanted to get up and slap these people. The picture was included in the email to the teachers.

I can't even begin to explain how DISGUSTED I am with the way these students are acting. One, they are 20 years old, they are not teenagers anymore and are supposed to be MATURE ADULTS! Two, these people want to work with KIDS, but what are they going to do if a child in their centre has a disability? Laugh and make fun of them? These people do not deserve to be in child care if this is the way they act towards other ADULTS. It disgusts me, it sickens me.

Beside's the email we sent to the teachers, there is not much we can do to get this problem solved. You can't force someone to stop talking, but this is HARASSMENT. It is wrong. It is bullying. Bullying in COLLEGE! It's ridiculous.

I can't think of anything else to state at the moment about this, but it pisses me off. I hope the teachers decide to do SOMETHING because it is getting out of hand.

Till later,
Nessie

He makes me wanna marry him yesterday

So yesterday I went over to my babe's house because he was sick and when my baby is sick I feel bad, and sad, and I just wanna be with him and make him feel better. So, I finished at 2 and hopped on the bus and went straight over to him! We orderd pizza when I got there because we were both hungry (he has a head cold, not anything stomachy that makes him wanna puke). Afterwards we fell asleep..for 4 hours! It was insane, I mean I knew I was tired, but I didnt realize how tired I actually was. SO anyways, I woke up at 8:30 and just lay with him, thinking about him and how much I lvoed him, thinking of everything we had been through, and everything we will go through still. Our 1 year is coming up very quickly so I've been thinking about the two of us so much lately, and how much I cant wait to move in with him (only 3 more months!!).

So anyways, he woke up and, at the time, I was sitting on the couch cuz I had checked something on my phone really quickly. He asked me what I was doing, I said checking something, and went to lay back with him. He said I didnt have to, but I mean, cmon, I WANTED to. I love cuddling him! It's prob my second fave thing to do with him (the first is personal :P lol).

So we put on something to watch and we lay there. He suddenly remebered the movie we were watching the other day and asked how it ended cuz he had fallen asleep, I told him how "Veronica mars" (as he knows her, and honestly I dunno her real name, nor do I really care lol) pretty much saved the day, or blah blah blah whatever lol, and he said "But she didnt get naked" and I said "she never will" and he goes "I know, and that sucks." Now, for some reason and I cant exactly explain why, but it made me feel jealous. I know Veronica Mars is one of his favourite female actresses, one that I know he thinks is hot and that he would love to see naked (or even her boobs lol), and it had never bothered me before. But last night it did. So I got stubborn, and upset, and got up off the matress (which we have on the living room floor cuz its soooo comfy to watch movies and cuddle, and you cant do that on a couch if u wanna lay together) and sat on the couch.

Jeff thought I was kidding around at first, so he left me to "sulk" for a minute and then called me back over to him. But he said the sweetest thing, "I want Nessie. I only want Nessie. Nessie is beautiful, and I love her, and I'm going to marry her." and I have to say, it made me smile. He says it all the time, but it still never fails to make me smile. So I got up and lay with him again, all cuddly and lovey again lol.

But as we lay there, I was looking at him and he said, "I had the saddest thought." I asked him, "what?". He said, "Even though it's not gonna happen, if we were to ever break up, you would be so heart broken and depressed, and you have like no friends to talk to. Not thats it's ever gonna happen. But what would you do?" "Sit in my room for days and cry," I answered, because its true, i WOULD be heartbroke, I would be DEVESTATED! I dont think I could live. "I'd die," he said, and I believe it as well. Jeff and I, we are so in love with each other that the mere thought of even that upset us both. So I leaned in and kissed him and whispered, "its never gonna happen."

And it's not...but if it did, and it's true I dont have many friends I could talk to about it...but its not friends I would want to talk to. There are only 2 people I could ever talk to about, 2 people in this entire world I would want to share it with, to help me through it...and that is my sister and my mother. It has always been that way, they have been the 2 woman in my life to EVER stick up for me, to EVER help me through hard time. NO ONE has ever done anything like that for me, and NO ONE has ever been there for me when I needed them, except them. My mother and my sister are all I need to survive if Jeff were to leave my life.

But, as mentioned before, it's never gonna happen. Jeff and I love each other, we're going to get married..hell...we're practically engaged already! Yes, I said it, and its true. Just because there is no ring on my finger doesnt mean Jeff and I havent already talked about our wedding, or our house. His mom has called me family, his brother already thinks of me as a sister...lets face it, I am a Karkheck. Vanessa Karkheck. I like the way it sounds :)

And thats what I mean by the title of this blog... he makes me wanna marry his yesterday, meaning it feels as if were already married, or going to get married, or whatever. I know this is gonna last. 3 months and I will be living with him...9 months and im considered his wife. Common Law marriage people, 6 months is all it takes of living together. Of course, Jeff and I dont actually think of it that way, I'm moving in so we can take our relationship further, and make it easier for me to get a job and such, that is until I get my G2 and I can drive my car around...but in reality its true.

I just wanted to share what a wonderful man I have. Some people may not think so, some may think hes an asshole, or a player, or a liar, or that I'm delusional. Those people dont know me, and dont know us. Those people would be wrong and can go to hell!

Till later,
Nessie <3

Paintballing- fun sport or next big dangerous thing?

So, on Saturday my boyfriend went paintballing with a bunch of his family for his nephews birthday. I had the oppertunity to join in or watch- I, obviously, chose to watch. During the 5 hours I watched these men play, I got to thinking…is paintball really such a good sport for young boys to play.

Think of it this way- paintball is a sport with guns where you shoot people. Ok, yes the guns are fake, they don’t shoot bullets they shoot paint, but it’s giving kids the perspection that shooting people is alright. Personally, I go back to the long lived debate about whether violent video games are alright for kids. It’s the same situation, in violent video games kids are shooting, killing, hitting, running people over, etc. In paintball, you are killing. If you get shot with a paintball, you are considered ‘dead’ or you get the oppertunity to ‘tag back’ if the option is given.

But it all comes back to the violence. Yes, paintball may be fun, from the looks of it all six of our guys that were playing had a blast. But, if a 5 year old were to see this, and then they go home and find daddys gun, and pick it up as if it were a paintball gun and try to mimic what they saw they’re brother doing… somebody could potentially get hurt.

Rascal Flatts has a song called “It’s not supposed to go like that” and the first verse is about two young boys playing cops and robbers, and one boy finds his daddys gun and plays with it, shooting his friend and killing him, all because he thought it was a game, he didn’t realize the gun was real and that it actually could hurt someone. It’s all the same thing.

The youngest in our group playing paintball was 11, and although he may be old enough to realize that a paintball gun is a paintball gun, and a real gun is a real gun… what if thee was an 8 year old there. Would he have the mental capacity to recognize such things? Maybe, but as I mentioned before, if his younger brother was watching him, his brother sure wouldn’t know any better.

I remember hearing a story about some kids who played Black Ops and decided to try it out for real. They were able to get a hold of some real guns, and hid in a tree in a covergae of a bush by the road, and shot the guns at people. Someone died that day.

This all goes back to the fact that violent games, however much fun they are, are dangerous. Parents need to be aware of what they are exposing their children to, and parents need to explain that ‘this is a real gun, this is real life’ vs ‘this is a game, this is fake’. It is up to the parents to pay attention to what their children are doing, who they talk to, and what they watch on tv.

Paintballing may be a fun sport to take up (expensive, but fun), and with the right guidence, everyone can enjoy the game without fear of something happening because one child thought their daddys gun was a toy.

Just a little food for though.

Day 20

Day 20:
A picture of somewhere you want to travel to



LONDON ENGLAND! Dream place to visit and someday I will! I am making certain of that!

Till later,
Nessie <3

Day 19:

Day 19:
A picture and a letter



A picture of me with letters on my sweater!!

Till later,
Nessie <3

Day 18

Day 18:
A picture of your biggest insecurity



My psoriasis (look at back). It appeared in Febuary of 2010 and, after many, many MANY doctor appoitnments and applying cream after cream after cream to it, it has finally disappeared and I am free!

Till later,
Nessie <3

Better Than Revenge

So, I was looking over my "Last Kiss" post and it reminded me of the fact that Taylor Swift's song "Better Than Revenge" is a song that, accoridng to Jeff, when I sing it, it reflects something personal. The other day I was listening to music and the song came on while I was Jeff and he said that the way i sang it, with such emotion and vibe, that it seems like a personal song to me. I guess in a way it is, but at the same time i just really LOVE the song!

Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did

Ha, Time for a little revenge

Verse:
The story starts when it was hot and it was summer
And, I had it all; I had him right there where I wanted him
She came along, got him along, and let's hear the applause
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
I never saw it coming, wouldn't have expected it
I underestimated just who I was dealing with
She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum
She underestimated just who she was stealing from

[Chorus]
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha

[Verse]
She lives her life like it's a party and she's on the list
She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it
I think her ever present frown is a little troubling
She thinks I'm psycho
Cause I like to rhyme her name with things
Sophistication isn't what you wear, or who you know
Or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go
Oh they didn't teach you that in prep school
So it's up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity

[Chorus]
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha ha


[Bridge]
I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey
You might have him, but haven't you heard
I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey
You might have him, but I always get the last word
Whoa

[Chorus]
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge,

And do you still feel like you know what you're doing,
Cause I don't think you do, Oh
Do you still feel like you know what you're doing
I don't think you do, I don't think you do
Let's hear the applause
C'mon show me how much better you are
See you deserve some applause
Cause you're so much better
She took him faster than you can say sabotage

Now when I relate this song, it's not really to the fact that someone stole my boyfriend, just stole something from me...plus it relates to a bitch haha! ANYWHO I think my favourite lyrics are "She's better known for the things that she does on the matress" and the fact that people think they are "so much better". Also the fact that this person acts like shes "on the list" or, in my words, all that. BUT whatever!

The fact is I love this song and I can relate it in a different way than Taylor uses here. I love this woman, she is just so fuckign talented!!!

Better than Revenging,
Nessie <3

A beautiful song

A few weeks ago I wrote something, a simple paragraph to a poem. I wrote this one night Jeff and I were having problems, a night where he was actually sitting right there as I grabbed my laptop and wrote it down. He asked me about it, asked me what I was writing. At first I didn't want to tell him, but then I decided I wanted him to know. I wanted him to hear what I had to say, and how I like to say it.

The tears are falling down my face
Like petals off a dying rose
What can I do to stop this pain
Thats in my head down to my toes

When I read this to Jeff, I impressed him. He said it sounded like something from an actual song, something that if finished I could send to some song writer people and make a living off of. I then decided to read him some of my other stuff. Some he thought was good, some could use some work, but he was impressed with what I had done because he never knew I did it.

Going back to what I wrote, this happened on a very bad night for the both of us. He was going through a very depressing night and I was going off a guilty night for assuming and being wrong about what was going to happen that night. Anyone reading this may ask themselves 'why are you with someone who makes you feel this way?' The fact is, this wasn't about him, it was about both of us. The emotions we were both feeling that night, what we were both expressing, was so strong... it was overwhelming.

Jeff and I have our issues, yes, but we both love each other more than anyone could imagine. About two weeks ago, we had a huge fight...over textmessage. The fact that it was via text actually made it worse because I don't hold back anything. In person, I'm afraid to say certain things, so when I'm not infront of someone, and fighting over anything involving text, it makes things all the worse.

Jeff and I almost broke up that night. It was an extreamly bad night, but what got us through it was the love we have for the other. A fight isnt worth ending our relationship over...espically not a fight like the one we had. That night, in the matter of 3 hours, we fought, talked, and worked it out. There was no break, there was no words exchanged enough to tell the other one to think things over and decide where we stand because we know where the other one stands. We both know we love each other enough to work through some petty fight. Right after we fought, we talked, and we were able to work everything out. I am so glad I have someone who will communicate with me enough to work things out rather than leave them in threads.

Beside's, the fact was the fight was my fault. I started it. I was the one making a big deal out of something that wasn't worth it. It's always my fault. I start it all. My new years resolution is to control that and fix it...and i am trying my damndest to do it. So far I'm doing an alright job, kets just hope it continues.

Jeff and I aren't just a fling, we don't JUST love each other...we are IN LOVE with each other...and there is a BIG difference between loving someone and being IN love with someone. Loving someone is when you care for them and have feelings for them...but those feelings aren;t as strong. Those feelings are those of a friend, or family..and you can never actually see yourself having a future that involves kinds with them. Jeff and I are NOT like that. Jeff and I both know that the love we share is special, it is one rarely found. It is the love of two people who want to spend the rest of their lives together, the love of two people who want to have kids together, grow old together, and die together. Jeff and I are IN love.

I love him so fucking much! I can't even imagine a day without him. My heart would shatter if he were to leave my life. I would be nothing without him.

Confessing her love,
Nessie <3

day 17

Day 17:
A picture of something that has made a big impact on your life recently



BOOKS! Books are the best way to get distracted, lost in another world, good way to get you through hard times, and overall the best thing to cure boredness! Books have always made an impact in my life!

Till Later
Nessie <3

Day 16

Day 16:
A picture of someone who inspires you



Kaleb Nation because he started his first book at the age of 14 and it was published when he was 20...his 2nd book in the series was published in October. He is a fantastic write and an amusement to watch on BlogTV or Youtube.

check out my review blog for a review on Bran Hambric The Specter Key by Kaleb Nation at www.nessiereviews.blogspot.com or check out Kaleb Nation's site at www.kalebnation.com

Till later,
Nessie <3

Day 15

Day 15:
A picture of somewhere you want to visit before you die



The Wizarding World of Harry Potter!! This is like my dream vacation loaction!! I mean c'mon, its Harry Potter come to LIFE!!! lol

Till Later,
Nessie <3

Last Kiss

I wanna talk about Taylor Swift's song "Last Kiss" because everytime I listen to it, it makes me sad because it's a pretty accurate represenation of what I would do if Jeff and I were to ever break up. First, I want to look at the lyrics though:

I still remember the look on your face

Lit through the darkness at 1:58

The words that you whispered

For just us to know

You told me you loved me

So why did you go

Away

Oh Away?



I do recall now

The smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement

I ran off the plane

That July 9th

The beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt

I can still feel your arms



But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips



I do remember

The swing in your step

The life of the party, you're showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then

You pull me in

I'm not much for dancing

But for you I did



Because I love your handshake

Meeting my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something

There's not a day when I don't miss those rude interruptions



But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips



So I'll watch you life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe

And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are

Hope it's nice where you are



And I hope the sun shines

And it's a beautiful day

And something reminds you

You wish you had stayed

You can plan for a change in weather and time

But I never planned on you changing your mind



So I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is that

I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips



Just like our last kiss

Forever the name on my lips

Forever the name on my lips

Just like our last

Ok, so basically the first few lines were she says that he told her he loved her at 1:58am is similar to Jeff and I because it was about 2 or 3 in the morning when he told me he first loved me, and I would ask myself the same question...if you loved me why did you go away?

The line where Taylor says "the beat of your heart, it jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms" well, I listen to Jeffs heart ALL the time while I lay my head on his chest or rest my hand there, and his arms are forever around me, so I would still eb able to feel his heart and his arms around me.

The chorus hits a big nerve, because I WOULD sit on the floor in his shirt he gave me and I NEVER imagine us having a last kiss so if he did it would surpriuse me GREATLY. His name IS forever the name on my lips because I love him.

The second verse about him being the life of the party reminds me of his mothers wedding, he was full of life there and he pulled me into dance (and i cant dance lol) but I did for him because I love him. And the day he met my dad was very special because he is the one and only guy to ever meet my parents.

If we broke up, I'd stalk his facebook, watching his life go by in pictures and think back on everything we had, and I do watch him sleep...and I know he'd forget me eventually like I used to feel him breathe... we dont really have mutual friends but there are some poeple I have on my facebook that I would keep in contact with to see how hes doing if were not talking..

Basically I see this song as a very sad version of my life if the two of us were to break up...HOWEVER Jeff and I are totally in love, head over heels, and we're gonna end up married...so even though I listen to this as a represntation of a break up...i know its not gonna happen!

Till next time,
Nessie <3

Day 14

DaY 14:
A PICTURE OF THE PERSON YOU COULD NEVER IMAGINE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT

I love this man with all my heart (even when he does stupid things lol but dont all guys sometimes :P) I can not even start to imagine my life without him in it anymore. I love you Jeff Karkheck...and cant wait to live my life with you forever!

Till later,
Nessie<3

Day 13:

Day 13:
A picture of your favourite band or artist



There is no question about it....Taylor Swift <3

Till later,
Nessie <3

A new year!

Wow! What a wonderful week it has been! Of course there were some mishaps, there always are, but for the most part I've enjoyed myself very much! Christmas was just amazing with my Jeffie here with us, and New Years was so much fun with his family!

One thing is for sure, his family definetly sees me as family! His brother Jamie was calling me his sister in law already, and we were even discussing Jeff and I's wedding...and were ot even engaged yet! It may sound crazy, and hey maybe it is, but the facts are true... Jeff and I will end up together...he knows exactly what he needs to do to make it happen, and I know he will...all its gonna take it time...and I trust in him enough to do it...

Anyways, I dont feel like going into details about everything, but New Years was a lot of fun, and it came in in such a wonderufl way!

I'm wishing you all a bery happy new year and I hope you enjoy it as much as I will
Nessie <3