I GOT A JOB!

I am soooooo excited! I GOT A JOB! Yes, after a MONTH of searching endlessly, I have finally found employment! AND ITS AT A DAY CARE CENTER with the TODDLER age group! So, in reality, I am not starting a job....I'm starting my CAREER! I am so happy!

The center is really good as well! AND i know one of the toddlers as well! Sumer's mom is quite happy about the fact that Im working at the centre her daughter is in! And Sumer just LOVES me too! I went in to observe on Thursday morning, to see how I handled myself in the room and with the children, and Sumer smiled at me and played with me, as well as some of the other children as well!

It happen fast too! I had the interview Tuesday and it was a very informal interview and I wasnt sure how much i would like it, but when they called me wednesday and asked if I could come in Thursday for the observation i thought what the hell, I need a job...and I actually ended up really liking it!

I start Monday, 11 an hour, benefits, and come october I get an automatic bonus! So things have worked out after all!

I am really happy about all of this!
Nessie <3

Songs and poems...

So just wanted to say I've made a new blog for songs and poems so it doesnt clutter this blog up too much!

COMPUTER!!

SOOOO excited! I got my computer back on Thursday! Bad side...the guy I stole internet from has passworded his internet so I gotta travel to the library everyday to use their WiFi...ah well! I am just so happy to have my laptop back!

In other news....fuck it was cold on Sunday! Jeff ha a baseball game and I sat outside in the freezing cold rain for 2 and a half hours! I was sooo fucking cold! AND I had on a sweater, my coat AND jeffs sweater! But seriously it was cold! Their team lost by 1 run too :( they woulda won had the captain called it at the 5th inning like the other team wanted but they decided to play it out another 2 innings and ended up losing by 1...1 run! AH well even though it was cold, I always love watching my baby play...oh the things I do for love!!

Ive been so fucking bored these past few days but i cant seem to find a fucking job! I was supposed to have an interview with a couple this week but they fucking canceled on me because they found care through a neghbor! UGH so annoying! However I did get a reply back from a centre I emailed a month ago that they were iterested in an interview with me so....fingers crossed!!!

Anywho... I dont have much more to say I guess....supposed to be handing out resumes tomorrow..OH wait Jeff got a new job! I am so happy for him!!! <3 <3 thins are looking up for him...now just gotta get things up for me!

Ok now Im done...I think...fuck im gonna be bored...guess its time to go home and read....again...like ive been doing the past 3 weeks....*sigh*

Till later,
Nessie <3

Catch up!

Wow has it ever been a while since I last posted! Let's see what's happened since then...

Well I've offically moved into Jeff's! Thats right Jeff and I are now living together! It's not much different then it was before when I would spend most of my days there, however with the adjustment of my things and his things and how each of us do things...yeah its an adjustment, but we're doing it.There are going to be ups and downs, but in the end I know we will make it work because we both love each other very much and can work through anything.

Next thing...I finished school! With very good marks as well! I finished with an 82% average this semester, and 81% average overall of all 4 semesters! I am so proud of myself!! But of course this brings me to finding a job, which of course is not an easy thing! It's very frustrating and a never ending process but I really need one, as I only have enough money for rent next month and then...I'm broke. But I'm working on it...

Oh! And speaking of finishing school I went to Rev with a bunch of friends to celebrate the end of school....yeah it sucked, I hated it. SOOOO not club girl! First of all the music was shit, it sucked! Nothing good AT ALL to dance to! Also, drinks are too expensive, I only bought one and it cost me 6 bucks! (however I had drank before we went, and let me tell you, the predrink was SOOmuch better than the actual drinking!) And guys just fucking PISS ME OFF! what gives you the right to grab someones waist and try to pull them into a dance! (this happened twice! UGH!!!) and what the fuck makes you think I want you touching my fucking ass! (an asshole did this and I was sooo disgusted! EWW!) and I hate guys coming up to me and two guys did just that to compliment me on myoutfit (they only did it cuz it was low cut). So not going there again! Did not have a good time! However I am up for stampede, which I believe Jane is gonna let me know the next time she goes, cuz hey, Im a country girl!

I've also did all but my in car dirvers trianing and I really enjoyed it! The in class stuff was really fun actually, as the instructor was really funny and kept it interesting! I liked it...now I just want some more practice on the road before I do the in car hours so that I actually pass it with a good mark!

Downside of things...my fucking computer messed up and I had to take it in to be fixed so I am stuck coming to the library every day to use the computer for an hour or so so I can check my email and look for a job. Sucks cuz I can't do the things I enjoy doing (like writing) and I havent gotten to see Starship yet (starkids newest musical!!!) and I am DYING to watch it! Oh well guess I'll have to wait for the call that says my computer is ready! (they said 10-15 business days...its been 11 lol)

I also was very sick the last week of school and sooooo should not have been there AT ALL but seeing as I had finals and shit to do I went, feelings like I was going to puke...which may be the reason I got 56% on myone exam...I couldnt focus on what I was reading and could not recall ANYTHING! Not to mention the fact that the stupid teacher decided presentations was a better way for us to learn than, you know, her actually teaching us! Sure I can read the text book and go oer the slides on my own, but I'm not going to fully understand unless they are explained to me...which they werent! Oh well its over at least...

This past weekened was amazing too :) Friday a bunch of Jeffs family went to the Mandrine to celebrate the graduation of me, his mom, and sister in law! We all finished school this pastmonths! His mom and Bruce got me the dresser :) I got tulips from a family friend...or cousin..im not really sure haha but they were pretty :) And my love Jeffie got me a BEAUTIFUL boquet of lillies and other flowers, as well as money in a card which went towards a new camera since the lens on my other ones busted somehow..everyone keeps sayig it was cu I was drunks but I WASNT! I only had 6 drinks in like 7 hours...I was soooo not drunk! I think it banged against something..or it was from the stuff that spilt on it and it just got stuck, I dunno, but it wasnt cuz I WAS DRUNK! oh well this new one is better :) HD and everything!!! So cool! The staurday was nice as well as we went out and a bout, to see his mommy, do groceries, and get me my camera! We had a drink at Mongolias with his brother to thank him for driving us around, and we took snoopy on a nice loooooong walk :) Sunday I went to visit my mommy for mothers day with my sister and hung with my sis for a bit too. Overall it was just a really good weekend!

Of course there was drama in it, but if you focus on the bad then you forget about the good, and the goood out weighs the abad BIG TIME so who cares a bout all the shit that went down, I'm just happy with everything else!

Today is my parents 27th anniversary, it's hard to believe theyve been together so long, but I knowthat thanks to them it is possible to stay together through thick and thin. I have high hopes for Jeff and I, if only because of the wonderful role models I have as parents.

Anyways, I think thats everything to say for now...
Till later,
Nessie <3

9 words men should know

I have seen these 9 "woman's statements" before, and I actually find them quite true. I'm going to add some stuff to them though...

(1). FINE This is a word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to SHUT UP!
I want to add here that sometimes we say "I'm Fine" when asked "are you okay" and almost always we are never "fine", we mean "leave me the fuck alone you've made me angry!"

(2). FIVE MINUTES If she is getting dressed this means half an hour. 5 minutes is only ever 5 minutes if you have just been given 5 minutes more to watch the game before helping around the house.
This isn't true for all woman, I don't take that long to get ready, so this one more goes towards the woman, rathen than woman in general.

(3). NOTHING This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes and be worried. Arguments that begin with nothing usually ends in fine. (go back to No.#1 for fine)
This is basically true I'd day...although sometimes nothing really is wrong it all goes towards HOW we say it...if it's casual and we don't seem like anything wrong, don't prode, or you WILL have a problem.

(4). GO AHEAD This is a dare, not permission. DON'T DO IT!!!!!!!!
Very true, I would say... go ahead is how we say "do you want to see what happens if you do it?"...just don't unless you want to start a fight.

(5). LOUD SIGH This isn't actually a word, but a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks that you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with u about nothing.(refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing).
Eye rolling typically goes along with this...never ask why we are rolling our eyes, cuz typically it means we think you are stupid and wonder why we waste our time...and asking why we are rolling out eyes or sighing just pisses us off!

(6). THAT'S OKAY This is one of the most dangerous statements, a woman can make to a man. THATS OKAY means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistakes.
Ever wonder what a good response is? When we say "Alright" or "Yup"...any other response to a question typically means NO!

(7). THANKS A woman is thanking you, do not question or faint. Just say you're welcome. Unless it's said 'THANKS ALOT' - that is Pure Sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT SAY 'YOUR WELCOME'... That will bring on a WHATEVER.
And never ask "thanks for what" it pisses us off!

(8). WHATEVER Is a woman's way of saying, FUCK YOU!
I have nothing to add...that's just plain true...

(9). DONT WORRY ABOUT IT Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "Whats wrong?'' For the woman's response refer back to # 3.
True, if you don't want us cranky, just DO IT!

Alright hope you liked it
And any men out there..BEWARE!
Nessie <3

gslkdj!! UGH!

Alrighty so I got the mark back for that inclusions assignment I went crazy over with my group...and guess what....all the work that I did had exceptional marks! The work I relied on my group to do was poorly done!

I am so pissed off about this because I TOLD my group that the research needed to be added and it WASNT!

What did I do in this assignment? The ELECT and Miestone section of the chart (which recieved full marks), the Part D (23.75/25) and part E (46/50, which the teacher said was the best mark on that part shes seen so far in my class) and the presentation (12.9/15). So, as you can see, anything I put my effort into got very good marks. My group, however, caused the paper work assignmnet to be 17/25 total, which is only a 70% mark! I am so pissed off at this because had they added the research to the chart like I had CLEARLY stated in the email I sent along with the ELECT and Milestone info on the chart, we would have gotten fill marks!

As well as my group obviously didn't read the actual information on WHAT we were supposed to add....

Had I did the whole thing on my own we prob would have gotten like 85 on everything...but no they were fucking idiots and didn't listen to me! So we ended up with a 70% on the paper work.

Our teacher even said we had done a very good job and had the research been added, we would have done VERY well on it. hgkjhad;klgjad;! thats all I gotta say!

Ugh I am not happy with this mark!

A pissed,
Nessie

more writing :)

So I've been writing more little blurbs :) here they are!

You don't even notice how I feel
and baby you don't care if its real

The story starts with you and me
sitting under a shaddy tree
I was sitting there reading my book
When I saw you give me that look

I never thought itd be you
but you made me fall, that is true
you werent supposed to make me feel this was
now I hope it never goes away

Falling rain shows your pain with eyes about to explode

I just can't get enough of your lips on mine
and after all thsi time you still dont mind

I'm one tear away from a big mistake
if I do my herat will break
I cant do that to him I cant do that to me
why cant it be like it used to be

Dont let him change you
look him in the eyes and say

take me as i am or set me free
i wont be anyone else but me

Take a deep breath
let it out slowly
you dont to feel lonely

Look inside and find me there
You know baby I care

Put me in a white gown
marry me today
meet at the preecher
I wont run away

A ring on my left hand
making me your wife
I promise to be there
the rest of my life

you in your black suit
baby I love you
staring deep in my eyes
as I say I do

Take me away
Carry me with the wind
Times going slowly
But I need it to go so fast
I dont wanna be me
I wanna be someone else
Look out, be something new
I dont want this, im through

I wanna run free
like the hores you see
galloping without a care
Running around, wild out there
No reins to tie them down

I wanna soar high
like a bird in the sky
flying far away
wings spread, gone all day
no need to land on the ground

To be s0omething else
just for a day
would make eveyrthing go away
The stress and the tears
I dont wanna hear
anything youve got to say

My hands are shaking in a rage
I should be locked in a cage
I am loose, wild and free
You should be running away from me

:)
Nessie <3